Step out of the cocoon.

I am not in a comfortable place right now. I never wanted to be a small business owner, yet here I am, and I seem to be doing fine at it but it doesn't feel like me.  I'm not sure exactly what is me these days, and I wonder if I'm going through a mid-life crisis or perhaps a spiritual awakening. Or perhaps one precedes or goes hand in hand with the other? I'm a writer who isn't writing, yet more. I'm a introvert who is teaching, yet more. I'm a studio owner who doesn't feel like the Studio is quite hers yet.

But I do know I need to start writing again, as that feels like a hole in my soul that needs filled. Perhaps not fiction, not right now. Perhaps just trying to get back at the center of what is needed to make me feel whole in the midst of this chaos and uncertainty that it feels like surrounds me. I've been reading a lot of Pema Chodron and she says "A teacher once told me that if I wanted lasting happiness the only way to get it was to step out of my cocoon."  Okay then, emergence commenced, waiting to see what creature I become when the last of the silk has been parted.